It is time to get right down to it with this topic! Is alcoholism a disease | The truth from a recovering alcoholic
Yes, I am certified to talk about this as I am quickly approaching my 3rd year of alcohol sobriety.
Is alcoholism a disease | The truth from a recovering alcoholic
Yes! but no… I am still conflicted on this matter.
I had an interesting chat from a good friend of mine this morning about this topic. I agree on most of what he had said and still not sure if I am just keeping something from myself but disagree with a few points.
We all have our opinions right?
Now, I just got done chatting with my friend so all this is still fresh in my head. I have not been able to collect my thoughts on this subject. Here I am going to just write what pops in my head.
I used to think alcohol was a disease but when it come right down to it, it is a choice. Or as he looks at it, it is a sin. Now, I am only going to tell you about me because every ones story is always going to be slightly different but, the root of this evil is Alcohol… and choice.
Yes it is a choice to go to the store, grab that 6er or in my case… a case or more, drive home if you were or were not impaired, consume this
drink, get drunk (because 1 is too much and 6 is not enough, right?) Yeah, I lived this life. Now in the progress of getting intoxicated you will most always do something incredibly stupid like walk, cook food, drive a car, fly an airplane…
Not that I fly airplanes but you get the point. But these are all individual choices just like the choice to wake up and pop open a beer.
To quote my friend, he puts it like this…
Who says sorry for having Cancer? Cancer is a disease, alcoholism is a choice, a sin and the only reason to say sorry is more for yourself than for others.
I believe I got that right.
What I mean by saying sorry is more for yourself than others is this:
- Sorry is more of a selflessness, a bad excuse
- The action has already been done
- Sorry is a word that is used too much when dealing with this crap
The truth from a recovering alcoholic
The absolute truth about this is yes, it was a choice. I hurt many around me in my own self destruction with alcohol, knowing what was happening and doing nothing to stop it.
I never beat my kids from this choice I am happy to say but the psychological side of it was a beat down as it was. I am still trying to get that back but I have to face the truth and say, nope…I lost those years and picking the pieces up from it is a hell in itself!
If I had a better grasp years ago on what it was doing to me, I wish I could have stopped a long while ago, before it was too late.
The only thing I can do is make amends and hope like hell I am forgiven by whoever I wronged.
Truth, truth is alcoholism is a choice not a disease.
Like previously mentioned this November 6th will be my 3rd year and to this day I still get the wants and even dream about it too but I keep on keepin’ on! I look back to my choice and it helps me recognize the “triggers” as some call them to falling off that ole’ wagon. Which I hope I am never faced with that stupid choice ever again in life! But the temptation is still there, always!!
You have to find that one thing within yourself to get clean and keep using it. No matter what gets you to wake up and get right, never let go of that reason because in the end…if it got you to sobriety, it works…keep using it.
There are no easy answers and as many out there that are still battling with this choice and thinking your body needs alcohol to get rid of the shakes is to pop open a beer (or whatever your poison is) and swig down a few, that my friend is a choice.
The absolute truth is this…stop drinking for 30+ days and they go away, for a long time! and get this, you sleep so so much better, you eat better, no more running to the bathroom to puke or puke out both ends. (sitting here laughing at that last one). Hey, we have been there but my feelings lean towards not feeling like shit on a daily basis and with a little help from milk and cookies, awesome family and friends, mentors even pastors are wonderful help!
My truth is this, STOP DRINKING FOOLS!!
I want to help people get out of this lifestyle and see that there is a way better world out there without alcohol! You’ll thank me later but I don’t need a thanks, all I need is to know how long you been sober and that would be way better than any thank you.
If you need help and just want an ear or an eye, email me @ firstname.lastname@example.org You can even be anonymous if you want but I like getting personal, it helps so much better.
I was asked by someone close to me once, “why do you feel the need to share personal thoughts”. Well, it helps, it is therapeutic and if it helps just one other person then, I made a difference to someone and that makes me feel good about my choice to become sober.
Thank you for taking the time to read Is alcoholism a disease | The truth from a recovering alcoholic and I wish you the best in your journey towards a better life, a life sober from alcohol.
P.S. It is not easy, it will be a hell for a while but find what got you there and hold on to it, soak it in and pathways will open in your life that will make life so much better in so many ways.
One other thing… David, thanks for some topics for this post. I am blessed to have you as a friend and mentor.